Tuesday, July 8, 2008

I guess no one can ever really prepare you for the moments leading up to and following giving birth to your child. I thought I was prepared, I thought I knew what to expect, I thought I would know how I'd feel....I was so wrong. And not in a bad way, but in the best way imaginable. Today is the day that will change the rest of my life. 

After writing yesterday about the impending birth of our son, further known as Aiden Andrew Tabler, I really had no idea what the next 24 hours would hold, and though they flew by in what seemed like seconds, it was quite a process...and one I hope to never forget. He arrived in all of his glory less than 10 hours after I was induced on Monday evening, making his entrance at 8:42 am today. As he came through the birth canal, I saw his head followed by one more push to see the rest of his slimy covered body - all 6 lbs., 2 oz. of it.  There are simply no words to describe the rush of emotions that pumped through my body in those few seconds. With Nathan at my hands, and this new little life laying on my chest, I could do nothing but weep...with joy of course...for the life that God had delivered (literally!) to us. What in the world would we do next?!?!

It is safe to say those moments seem to go in slow motion...from the time I could see his little head until the time he was hanging out with us in our room, it was all just this slow creeping clock of time. My life had just begun a completely new chapter and my pace of life, while seemingly slow at this moment, will forever be changed to a new and insanely fastidious pace with Aiden. His little legs, arms, fingers, toes, eyes, ears, everything was knit together perfectly inside my tummy for the past nine months and was now laying beside me. Putting that concept into reality is nothing short of impossible, yet totally surreal. 

We will leave the hospital in a few short days. Being surrounded by caring nurses, Nathan, my parents, and friends has been incredible. What a memory to share with them. One I will not soon forget. My life is forever changed by this little man who doesn't do anything but eat, sleep, and poop, but today I don't care what he does or doesn't do. I am amazed, shocked actually, at the process and the product of God in all of this. How can anyone NOT believe in God when they witness what I just went through in the past 24 hours? How can anyone not love this person that has been perfectly knit together from parts of you and parts of the person you've chosen to spend the rest of your life with? I'm not sure how they do it. But I know that I am in love. More so with God than ever before. More so with Nathan than I ever thought possible. And more so with little Aiden (BT) than I could have ever imagined I would. He is perfect and I am so so so thankful God chose us to loan him to for the next however many years he is with us. Nathan and I have promised to do our very best to raise him with all the knowledge and love we have available to us through God's love.  


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