Monday, July 21, 2008

obviously we have a lot going on these days and it seems i don't have the time to write that i used to - not that i had a lot of time then. but now i really have no time...at least what i consider time. what time i do have is now comprised of three hour increments, if not two hour increments, and comes and goes with lightning quickness. for aiden, it looks something like this: 

EAT - 30 minutes
BURP/RELAX - 30 minutes
SLEEP (maybe) - 1 - 2 hours
- START OVER - 
 - aiden doing what he does best before we headed off to the doctor.
pretty chill, right? 

for me, it looks more like this:
SIT AND FEED AIDEN - 30 minutes
SIT or STAND and BURP AIDEN (and be spit up on) - 30 minutes
DEAL WITH GASSINESS, CHANGE CLOTHES, WALK AIDEN AROUND THE BLOCK, PUT HIM TO SLEEP (maybe) - 30 minutes
TRY TO DO LAUNDRY, or EAT SOMETHING, or BRUSH MY HAIR, or HAVE SOME SEMBLANCE OF A LIFE - 1 hour
- START OVER - 

before i know it, the hour (or two or three) is gone and i have no idea what took place.  all i know is that i'm starting the cycle all over again. 

they tell me this phase will pass.  they tell me to enjoy this phase. they tell me this is normal. what, about not being able to take a shower until 8 at night is normal, i ask? i do, however, realize that it is only a phase and am doing all i can to enjoy what precious time this is with aiden and nathan before he's two and running us both around nonstop like we all know they do. i'm sure that before we know it he'll be climbing on walls and writing on things, and messing with nathan's gadgets. then he'll be in kindergarten and before we know what happened, his voice will be deep and he'll be taller than us and then graduating and going off to college. those things i can hardly fathom right now. 

how easy his life is right now. how much i can do for him right now. i know that the chasm of those two things will only drift farther and farther apart with each passing day, month, year. though i will always want to do for him as i can now - provide for him in pretty much every way that he needs - i know the time for that is so finite, and that ultimately God is the only one who can provide for him as the days fly by. 

after today that's even more apparent. today was aiden's first visit to the doctor - his two week check up to see how much he weighs and check all his vitals and measurements to be sure all is well in newborn land. he came in at a whopping 5 pounds, 14 ounces...4 ounces less than he weighed at birth.  everything else was looking good, he's just a small little dude sitting in the 5th percentile of just about every category. bet no one could guess that from his parents! all systems are go and now we just watch him grow. i'm so amazed at this whole process...all that's involved and how little control we actually have. so off we go to the big new world of growing up.  we just don't want him growing too fast...so we can relish in the moments like this that we do have together. 

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